Sometimes "Goodbye" is easier to say than you thought.....

In the last year I have done a little, shall we say "editing" in my life.....

Got rid of some friends (and family members) that I felt like I just didn't need anymore. Some of them seemed to not need me anymore either so I guess that's alright too....

I'm pretty sure in most cases it was a clean break, and it's possible that it was an easier thing to do than I ever expected. I find myself less stressed about things that used to make me want to pull out my hair. Now I'm more relaxed, ready to deal with things at a slower, more reasonable pace.

I've learned a lot too.

I've learned about the true value of friendship, support and loyalty. I used to always consider myself to be a good friend to any one that needed a good friend. Going out of my way to help and support but now I know that you can't make every one happy.

I hope I'm teaching my kids these new lessons too, I'd hate for them to be in their 30s before they figure them out. Although I suppose some lessons need to be learned rather than taught.....

Ouija board, Would you work for me ? I have got to say Hello to an old friend.............

I don't know how to say what I want to say....

My thoughts are disjointed and random...

I dream I have conversations with her and I want to pick up the phone and finish them.

She has been missed everyday of the last 10 years and I would give anything to hear her voice again....

Knowing her was a blessing in my life....

Today would have been her 37th birthday and I will raise a glass in her honor and to her memory.....

Caitlee, Happy Birthday and I love you!

Happy Birthday Judith!!

Happy Birthday to you, Judith! I adore you and hope that this day is a great day for you! Enjoy!! Here are some flowers for your day, yellow for friendship and red for love!!

My dear friend Judith Shakespeare is celebrating her birthday today and I just wanted to show her some bloggy love!! So if you want to show her your love too, do a Happy Birthday Judith post and Link it back here.....'cause WE LOVE YOU JUDITH!!!

"Fan her head! She'll be feverish after so much thinking."

My friend Melisa over at the Scrawl has tagged me again......I think she likes to make me work and hey we even have the same middle name (just spelled different). Who knew that thinking of facts about yourself would be so hard!!??

Here are the rules:

You must post the rules before you give your answers.
You must list one fact about yourself for each letter of your middle name.
Each fact must begin with that letter.
If you don't have a middle name, just use your maiden name.
After you've been tagged, you need to up-date your blog with your middle name and answers.
At the end of your post, you need to tag one person for each letter of your middle name. (Be sure to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and need to read your blog for details).

My middle name is Lynne

L - Likes sausage scramble on Sundays for brunch
Y - Yearns to be back in Northern California
N - Never has broken ANY bones
N - Nordic descendant
E - Extremely friendly, whether you like it or not! Ha!


So know I have to infect...oops, I mean TAG......5 people. I tag Fiesty, Jenny, Rachel, Stina and Dame Judy. Have fun ladies!!

On Friends.....

I have recently (and by recent I mean almost a year now) been graced with the presence of some loverly new friends in my life. Women..... can you believe it? I have chic friends!! And they don't stand me up or flake for no good reason.

Amazing you say??

No, they are internet friends who have turned into phone friends and even snail mail friends as we have started sending each other cards and whatnot. They are moms just like me, with kids and husbands. They are going through the same crap as me and surviving. And for the first time in forever I feel less.....alone.

Okay yeah, so we met on the internet and how do I know that they aren't just some dork in his undies posting from mommy's basement??
Well I guess until I have a chance to meet them I never will know for sure, but for now it doesn't matter to me.

I have new girl-friends!!

I finally have chic friends who call to ask how my doctor's appointment went yesterday. And they check on me because I sounded "down". I have chics who make me laugh. I have chics to compare stories with.

That's not to say that my big gay (sorta like) brother is not my "chic" friend but sometimes he and I have a hard time staying in touch....we go months without hearing from each other. It sucks but it's how we work.
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Courtney, Rachel and Jeanie.......Thank you, for everything. I LURVE you ladies!!

Marianne & Heather .....a girl couldn't ask for better "sisters"!!

Sitt.....I will always be your biggest fan and most loyal Hag!!