Ouija board, Would you work for me ? I have got to say Hello to an old friend.............

I don't know how to say what I want to say....

My thoughts are disjointed and random...

I dream I have conversations with her and I want to pick up the phone and finish them.

She has been missed everyday of the last 10 years and I would give anything to hear her voice again....

Knowing her was a blessing in my life....

Today would have been her 37th birthday and I will raise a glass in her honor and to her memory.....

Caitlee, Happy Birthday and I love you!

You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give. ~Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet

As some of you may remember last year I wrote about Macy's Believe Campaign, this year they're doing it again.

I am thrilled to tell you that once again Macy's is collecting letters in a special Santa letterbox at all Macy’s stores and for each letter received, Macy’s will donate $1 to the Make-A-Wish Foundation. You can also stop by there and find out how to enter to win a trip to New York to see the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade.

Make-A-Wish is a wonderful foundation that is very near and dear to my heart and I am very happy to be able to do something to support them!! So if you have some time please sit down with someone you love and write a couple of letters to Santa.

Don't forget to follow Macy's on Facebook and Twitter too.

Also, CBS will be premiering a new original animated special called, “Yes, Virginia.” on Friday, December 11, at 8 p.m. ET. which is awesome cause new Christmas specials are always welcome.

And as if that wasn't enough......I'm giving away a Macy's gift card for $25 next week. Watch for your chance to win!

Now run and get those letters written.....

Do you Believe??

My kids have finally gotten to the age where they know that Santa isn't real.....they still believe in the magic of Christmas they just don't buy the one guy theory.

I LOVE Christmas and all things Christmas so in our house I try to keep the spirit of the season, the "magic", going. We bake cookies and give them to neighbors, we donate money, time and items to various charities.....we do whatever we can to support the season of giving.

And of course we are writing our letters to Santa.....

Imagine how thrilled I was to find out that Macy's is collecting letters in a special Santa letterbox at all Macy’s stores. For each letter received, Macy’s will donate $1 to the Make-A-Wish Foundation. They have a Believe O Meter to measure the amount of letter they receive and special displays in the stores.

Make-A-Wish is a wonderful foundation and I am so happy to be able to do something to support them!! So if you have some time please sit down with someone you love and write a couple of letters to Santa, and be sure to check out the banner I'm putting in the side bar through Christmas.....Thanks guys! And Merry Christmas to you all!!

ya know, I really like vanilla......

so I've been thinking......

What would it be like if things always worked out according to plan? Would things have worked out so well for me? What if I had stayed in California and graduated with my friends? Would I have gone to college or started working right out of school? What if I had gotten a degree in design ? What if I had been a successful career woman? .....

My life is exactly what and where I want it to be. I didn't go to college but I helped my husband get his degree.....I worked my ass off in and after H.S at low paying jobs till I finally made it to management, and then poised on the cusp of truly being recognized I decided to be a wife and mother.... I still would like to get a degree in design one day and maybe even have a home business but for today I am happy to be where I am right now and happy to be who I am right now.

I am a better person than most people ever knew I was. I am a smarter person than people give me credit for. I am a kinder person than I let others know about. I love my husband with every fiber of my being, he is a kind and tolerant man, a wonderful lover and above all else a great father. He makes me laugh and he's my best friend.

It sounds so cliche to say that life is what you make it.....but it really is. If you spend all your time worring about things you can't control, you'll miss all the little things that make life a real adventure!!

Sometimes we forget to count our blessings.....sometimes ya just gotta try to find some.....and sometimes there are so many you can't count them all......!!!!!!!

I'm begining to sound like a cult member so I think I'll be done now, but don't worry I'll be pissed as hell about something silly tomorrow and all this will be forgotten for a while............